I Don't Feel Like Myself Right Now | armine's Blog

Lately I just don't feel like myself, I don't know why. I feel at a loss for words, very guarded about what I am thinking and feeling; feels like if I say something that is unusual or unpopular according to cultural viewpoints, I will be outcasted and labelled. Yet, there is something going on inside my head at the moment; I can't call it a transformation but there is a change taking place. My thoughts are going somewhere different, but I feel like I can't discuss it with anyone because no one will understand. Last night, while I was dreaming, I saw myself walking along a shoreline that I did not recognize... but suddenly I knew where I was, and I felt happy inside. I can't talk about anything right now; it's like there is a veil over my soul and no one can be allowed admittance to wherever it is that I am. My muse is taking me places that I have never been to in my present incarnation, but once I am there I recognize where these places are.

Perhaps an even more disturbing thought: once I am there I don't want to leave.

I don't know what's going on... and I can't talk about this any further at this time.

Maybe this is just some sort of temporary phase - but if it isn't then I will just have a lot of secrets that I will need to keep to myself.